As much as I tell myself, probably a few million times that I shouldn't care, that it shouldn't affect me, it still did.
I just need someone to recognize and appreciate the effort that I've put in this 1 whole year, but none did.
It makes me feel like I really don't deserve it.
It makes me feel like I haven't did enough.
It makes me feel like I don't deserve anybody's time.
It makes me feel like I'm the lousiest one can ever be and I'm just a waste of time and resources.
I just need someone to hear me out, listen to me without judging me.
All these things is killing me. I feel unwanted, I feel belittled.
Amazing how time pass. Amazing how things have changed.
Always felt a squeeze in my heart whenever the thought that I can't go back to the past to make things better dawn on me.
As I grow older each year, the amount of regrets increases and there's so much emotion piling up.