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Friday, June 7, 2013
Read this fucking piece of junk. Yes, my thoughts are all junk that no one will ever appreciate. I don't wanna be the one who keep on and on taking the initiative to ask people out. It makes feel like I've got no one. Even though that might be the fact. It's sickening to know that time sometimes you're just a option or even a substitute. Why can't I be someone who people will first thought of. It might be stupid to even have this thought. But it really sucks when people thought of me because they needed my help or my companion especially when their first option are not able to help them. Forever a substitute and a replacement. It has always been that way and it probably always will. Whenever I rant about something it really affects me. I didn't rant for the sake of ranting. Recently has been really stressful. But no one is there. Even though they seems that they are. But I don't truly think they understand what I'm going through. It just feels like their responds are patronizing me. I wanted that to be a success because it really meant something for someone. But yet again i felt like I'm doing it all alone. ALL ALONE. I have my own bloody things to do and to complete. I don't have all the time in the universe. There were nothing but excuses. I felt so helpless but what i can do was to pull myself together and complete that. Tolerated and i was took for granted. It supposed to be a happy thing and a opportunities to bring all of us together. but in fact I actually felt that it was a chore and errand. or even I'm obliged to do that. I feel like I'm just wasting my time. I wanna be 5 years old again. |