I just need a getaway from all these shits. 

Never once in my life I thought I've worked hard enough.

I'm leading myself nowhere. I'm starting to get worry and panic. 

Why wasn't I mature enough in the past. Now that I need to suffer.

Ironically, I knew what I'm suppose to do and what I'm not suppose to do. 

Now I don't. Now that I need to suffer again. 

Everything went so wrong and I don't know what to do anymore. :'(