i have been telling myself to be happy for the past few months. no matter how nasty other people treat me, as long as they are happy, i'm happy. however, whenever somebody pissed me off regardless they did it deliberately or not, i just show them my attitude. after showing them my attitude, i always reflect myself and thinks that i've been really too agitated or overboard. i regretted. but it's too late. i thought i can change my bad tempered, i told myself, how easy can that be. fact is, it's much more difficult then doing a bad debts account. frankly, i really hate myself. i'm so useless that i cant even control myself from throwing temper even that somebody is doing it for my own good and i don't even fucking reciprocate. sorry neh. >: